2003-03-04 || 5:46 p.m. || an exercise in ex-girlfriendiness || there were just a few parts that surprised me: catching myself looking at his hands for too long (that is what love is: looking at someone's hands and somehow recognizing them as your own. knowing them that well.) and being very conscious of the space between us while walking down the street. and i said it: 'you know, really, i am fine with the way things are now but i have to say it is the weirdest thing to walk this far apart from you. i can't stand it. it's like there's a magnet in your elbow and i'm doing all i can to keep up good friendly appearances.' and we talked and i was able to squeak out the question of how his lady is and didn't turn into a pile of ash. and i teased him and kicked him in the knee and i hugged him just a little too long by his car but it was. quite honestly. an earnest on-the-level hug. voila. guestbook || notes || archives || profile || photos || d-land |