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2003-11-19 || 8:10 p.m. || for the love of correspondence courses. || my "problem" is a nail-biting propensity toward the flight part of the fight or flight mentality, namely walking out on informational meetings for grad school to speed on the freeway and watch my knuckles turn white on the steering wheel and bite the inside of my cheek to shreds. debating whether to go inside the house because half-hour stint at making Life Change preparations does not progress make. sitting in the driver seat in the dark not feeling really upset. or sad. or frustrated. because this is how things always go. i have a very charming knack for agreeing with that voice that says, in her nicest calming maternal way, that it's okay to not be good enough and it's better just to stay inside with the covers over your head rather than try at things that could most likely reveal you're not quite as special as you sometimes allow yourself to think. on that note. will you please write me a letter of recommendation? guestbook || notes || archives || profile || photos || d-land |