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2002-04-18 || 8:03 p.m. || a little stiff. || but. what if the idea of you, or you on paper, or you as a memory, as a collection of chemicals and heat, makes you worthwhile. but you in the physical sense, in the standing at the crosswalk, sitting at a cafe drinking iced tea, talking on the phone and filling the empty spaces with laughter and hemming and drawing out the kinder syllables, is not so. worthwhile. captivating. interesting. what if you just don't have opinions like razors. what if you can't hold your own in a discussion of the korean war or dostoevsky or. shoegazing. what if you are somewhat funny, sometimes clever, occasionally "cute", but. you don't leave lasting impressions. you don't write your name in felt tip pen on anyone's insides. what then. it is nice to be a good driver. to be able to offer a spare toothbrush. to say please and thank you and are you all right? to help blind people across the street whether they want the help or not, to pay for others' drinks, to remember important dates and the names of parents. what if all that isn't all that important. what if you aren't all that important. what if other people have noticed this. guestbook || notes || archives || profile || photos || d-land |