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2004-05-09 || 9:58 p.m. || end. || sitting on the porch and realizing i am terrible with eye contact at times like this. he was in the exact place i've been in and i could feel everything he was feeling: let me pull this chart out of my pocket. this is the presentation i will give to convince you to stay with me. if i sound very upbeat on the phone and stand patiently in your kitchen while you scrub the stains from the sink, the problem will be rubbed out too and we can go back to how it used to be. this is the thing: love isn't enough, really. i've learned it but he hasn't and it's not a sentence you're allowed to say out loud when you can hear hearts breaking. i don't know if he understands where i'm coming from. i just know it wasn't right. and hurting someone like that is one of the very worst things that can happen. . guestbook || notes || archives || profile || photos || d-land |