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2001-10-01 || 3:20 p.m. || lately. || lately: bar excursions and sneaking bud tall boys into movies with a long lost friend. seeing his apartment for the first time ('i call it peppermint fantasy') and having to walk up the hill back to my car for a bottle opener. checkin out boys at the phone booth bar on south van ness and getting scandalously catty ('i don't trust him. he is wearing a plaid shirt and black sweater.' 'but you wear plaid shirts and black sweaters.' 'i know. but you can tell he thinks he's pretty.' and giving a play by play of the lady with the bustier and severe camel toe 'i think there's some kind of fashion violation going on over there.') sliding off high stools and ashing into ashtrays made from folded cardboard coasters. telling secrets and throwin back the $1.50 pints of pabst blue ribbon. walking down mission and remembering remembering remembering. and secret hijinx. the smell of this apartment makes me sad and comfortable and anxious to take my clothes off. confusion and shared breakfast of coffee and english muffins and poached eggs. quiet awkward moments and furtive handholding. and searching japantown for the machine that makes a stamp of your picture. going to the movies and yelling a little too loudly during the previews that i hate arguing with him because he doesn't play fair. talknig about heavy serious things on the way home. reducing my speech to 'mmhmmms' and 'oh yeahs' and 'reallys' and getting the funny feeling of just not having anything to say. and driving with the long lost friend to his parents's house. free loads of laundry and beer and lounging about watching mtv and cartoon network adn dazzling dazzling cable. grilling swordfish (swordfish!) and watching the sun go down from our hecka tight view in the backyard. telling more secrets and trying very hard to keep the quiet awkward parts from winding their way in. studying family pictures and senior class portraits and his mum's decorating style, fitting all of the pieces together to make up the puzzle that makes up him. guestbook || notes || archives || profile || photos || d-land |