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2001-10-19 || 2:46 p.m. || just can't stop it || sometimes i get nervous for no reason, or for no good valid reason really, and i am rushing rushing fiddling walking too fast and stubbing toes on carpet. i am conducting electricity and deflecting magnets and it feels like there are lead flakes and splinters rushing through the veins. i cannot walk in a straight line. i cannot sit down without the legs jerking and fingers turning into claws. this is when i try to stop, just for a second, heels of palms pressing into thighs, blood rushing out of face all disconnected parts and burnt out dendrites okay jenny. stop and pay attention for a second. you need to pee. stop and go pee. and you never had lunch. here's three dollars, go buy a sandwich. and there is no reason to rush. everyone else is in slow motion and you're just going to cause tornadoes if you keep running around like that. breathe and breathe and breathe and don't think so hard, those wrinkles in between your eyebrows are starting to deepen. guestbook || notes || archives || profile || photos || d-land |